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craziness & calmness all in one

Crazy times for us right now. Everything is up in the air with so many important decisions we are making. All in all we are excited for the new change. This past week at work I told one of the patients that I worked with that I was moving to Boise. She was sad to see me go, but happy too. I feel like I have treated all the patients I have seen with respect and I have shown them that I care for them in the best way I could. I am sad to go sometimes, but I keep remembering that change is good and I am going to love my new job.
We have been trying to figure out what our plan is going to be, nothing is set in stone yet. The unknown kind of gives my belly a whirl of emotions running in and out. Most humans don't like change, especially uprooting everything and going to a place you have visited a few times. With this change we know and understand there is going to be challenges and frustrations, but we know that with these things there is going to be growing and new beginnings that follow. 
We went up to Boise this Friday and Saturday to go look at some places we could stay. As we were driving up there I was thinking to myself how much I have personally grown in the past year and how much stronger of a person I am, more emotionally, spiritually and maybe a wee bit of physically :) I have always enjoyed the unknown, but through my life the unknown of outcomes I became more cautious. I know that with whatever I do in my life I will always have someone right by my side telling me to go for it or to wait and be patient, or to really think about my decision I am about to make and the outcomes. Even if anyone feels like no one is there listening, God is knocking at your door all you have to do is open the door and let Him in. 
I follow bofm365 on instagram and they put on these amazing quotes that are incredibly inspiring and spot on. Here are a few that struck me good.

" It will all workout." -Neill F Marriott

"When you do your part, the Lord adds His power to your efforts." -Henry B Erying


Wrigley and I and downtown Boise in the background

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