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There are no words that could express this past week. I am mentally drained. Let me begin with my last day at work. It was kind of depressing to say bye to everyone that I have grown so close to in the past year, especially a few of my good friends. They threw my a going away party and we had a bake potato bar...Get it? I thought it was kind of funny. I wish the best for everyone there and I am so thankful for everyone. When I had to leave my badge with my manager I was thinking to myself, "This is it, I am done with this place. Are you sure about this? Yes you are because you have a full-time job in Boise waiting for you." Back and forth, back and forth and forth and forth. Through all of that I knew deep down I was moving forward. I felt weird as I was walking to my car that it would be last time I would be doing it. Change is hard, but in the end I feel that change is good. 
Friday I had my allomap and echo with my doctors. My echo came back great, all my valves are doing what they are suppose too. My prograf level was spot on as well, so no changes. I gave my news of moving up to Boise and they did not want to let me go. Again, I started to think about my decision. One out of four of my doctors go up to Boise every 6-8 weeks to see outlying patients and there is a doctor up there that they communicate with every Monday and discuss about all there patients together. Which makes me a very happy camper! 
That afternoon we packed up and headed down to St. George with my parents for the weekend. My parents bought a house down there and all the furniture that they bought got delivered yesterday. So you can imagine...it wasn't as bad sheesh. We had 2 great helpers that brought everything down from SLC that took everything in the house and put together all of the furniture (with a little of our help).
We were all exhausted after, so we headed to Steve's gma's house to watch the second half of the game, Utah vs. BYU. 
Today we all woke up and did a few things around the house. In my moms words, "A spotless house." As we were driving back here comes everything that Steve and I have to do before moving starts rushing into my head. I might be a pansy with all this but all I have to say is my brain isn't big enough!!! I know that there is nothing that I can do without God's help in it, so I am hoping that He can expand my brain at this time. 

These quotes have kept me going everyday this past week...

"You have not failed until you quit trying." -Gordon B. Hinckley
"Remove any of your fear with faith." -M. Russell Ballard
"The best is yet to be." -Jeffery R. Holland

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