Heart4Ash (Skwig)

What a week it has been. The day after my best friend Scottie's birthday, it was my brother's birthday and then two days after that my husbands birthday, so I am birthday- ed out . My sister-in-law Katelyn made Steve a gluten free cake and it tasted so good. Usually gluten free stuff is super dry and kinda  bland tasting, but Katelyn made a cake better than City Cakes cake. This weekend was great. My family and I went down to Moab and Monticello to visit my grandpa's grave. In Moab we went on a small hike, played golf and I played and had a blast even though I am no good, but hey we all had a good time. Then we went to Monticello for a family reunion. This was my first time back in Monticello for about 3 years. Before even going down I didn't want to go down to see my grandpa's grave because I was in the hospital when he passed. I believed he was still down there eating his Reese puffs, coke and Lays potato chips. He was the greatest bear hugger in the world and I

Another week down, each week we all grow, learn, care, feel, and love. Every week that I am here is amazing. Even though sometimes the week isn't that interesting or overwhelming, but sometime a plain Jane week is what we need to think about how blessed and thankful we are to God. This past week has been just that plain Jane. Everything is going great. Steve and I went to the temple Tuesday night. After going to do God's work there was a great feeling that overcame me, I felt like God was padding me on my back. Every once in a while everyone needs a little pick me up. Today is my best friend birthday. She is my sister that came from another mother. We have always said that we are going to be these old women in our rocking chairs on our porch laughing about the past and yelling at kids. I am so proud of her, we have been through a lot and we were hinged at the hips the entire time. She is my go to when I can't take life anymore. She knows more than my mom, all the bad de

This past week was tough, but I am over my sickness. I saw my doctors on Tuesday and told them what the plan is potentially with our surrogate, so everyone is on the same page. All my blood work came back good as usual and hope that it keeps coming back good. Wednesday night I had a indoor soccer game, Thursday I went to the gym and rode the bike, Friday after work I did a leg workout and Saturday morning I woke up legs kinda  sore went for a run and worked on our yard. Our yard is looking pretty spiffy by the way. After I was spent, it blows my mind how being sick can affect our bodies. My doctors did explain to me to expect to be sick for a week longer than normal or more because of the immunosuppressant's  I am on. I am so used to be able to go right back to what I normally do after being sick back in the day. Now I have to remember that I am borrowing this heart and I am feeling amazing except for being sick :) I think sometimes I am back in college playing soccer. It is craz

Ever since Wednesday I haven't been feeling the greatest. I called my doctors and they wanted me to go to the instacare  to get my throat checked out. After the instacare  did a throat swab and it came back negative for strep throat, they prescribed me an anti-biotic to take for a week. Friday my energy level was good, but the other days I have been up and down with my energy. Sleeping has been a chore for me. In the end this makes me really appreciate my health. I have been sick twice since my heart transplant. I have heard a lot of transplant patients complaining about how much they get sick. I really enjoy pondering about my past week and sharing with you guys. It makes me really think about all the how, what, and when's of everything. How did I get sick, probably being around kiddos and because I am on immunosuppresant's . This is life though, and how we react to everything that happens to us here on earth echoes in eternity. My mother and I went on a date Friday nig

What is going on with the weather and my mood towards working out this week? Someday its sunny and the next few are rainy. This is what I felt like throughout this week about waking up and getting my heart ticking. Working out is something that I am addicted too, because before my heart transplant I couldn't. I love to feel my heart beat I don't know why, probably because I have missed it so much. During this week was tough though, but sometimes putting on a smile everyday can be a struggle too. Everyone has their own individual ones, it is how we decided to think, act or respond to everything that is around us. I try to be positive and optimistic everyday. I am a person who does her best at trying to believe that my glass is always half way full, even when I know it is not. All you got to do is keep trying and keep getting up and try some more. This Friday I went to see the high risk OBGYN to check my levels and they are good, now I just have to give some blood for a couple o