Heart4Ash (Skwig)

This week flew by like a flock of geese. Now that I have accomplished one of my resolutions, I am thinking about my other ones. The one that I am ready to tackle now is hiking Mount Olympus. I can't yet because of the snow. This is my next adventure though. As I am getting my body back into the condition I want it to be, I have noticed that my right arm is way weaker than my left. I had a stroke back in 2013 that affected my right side and after everything I have been to I feel like my right arm is a noodle. My right shoulder is much smaller than my left. I never really noticed it til  now. I am such a hypocrite, as I teach many of my patients about how long to takes to regain muscle and here I am getting frustrated at myself because I have been working on my right arm for 2 weeks now. I want my right as strong as my left like right now, not tomorrow, NOW please. Then I think about it, I tell myself every little thing you do is making a difference. If there is anything that you

Well, things are going good here. I can't believe it has almost been a whole year since my gift of life was given to me. There are no words to express how grateful, blessed and so very happy that my donor and family decided to give. I wrote my donor's father back yesterday. I can't remember if I told you about how my donor's father  heard from the recipient of my donor's pancreas and kidney. She is doing great and reported that our donor was a perfect match. Such a great blessing to give someone. It is truly a whole new life being handed to you and I am a living proof of it. This week my attitude was not the best at the beginning. Then I found this quote. "So much in life depends on our attitude. The way we choose to see things and respond to others makes all the difference. To do the best we can and then choose to be happy about our circumstances, whatever they may be, can bring peace and contentment ... We can't direct the wind, but we can adjust the

My last doc appointment my prograf  level was low. A week later I got my blood check and everything is good. This is very important because I don't want my ticker too reject on me. I did it, finished in one piece. Let me start from the beginning. I was freezing the entire time, I thought it was going to be warm... no not at all. I was really nervous, I don't know why because I have been training. At the starting line I looked around at all the runners. I was thinking, wow there are some real runners here. This bump up my nerves even more. As the race director counted down I reminded myself, you can do this and you are going to finish no matter how long it takes. I started my watch and began running, after all the "real runnner's " passed I started to get emotional. I thought about how I wouldn't be here at this moment if it wasn't for my donor. After 10 seconds, I sucked up my tears and kept running, 5 minutes later I started to cry again. I looke

As I think about my past week, I feel it went well. Went to see the docs on Thursday. I told them I had a busy weekend prior to this week and running on the treadmill at 0.5 incline is so trying. I told them about my work and how I am a little stressed about that and everything. When I am working out right when I get on the treadmill and begin to start running I am ready to walk after 0.25 miles. I believe that my mindset about the treadmill is awful and it will always be. When I am outside I could go forever. CRAZY! Anyways, my prograf  level came back at 7.2 they want me in between 8-10, so they bumped up my prograf  to 2 in the morning and 3 at night, rather than 2.5 at night. Also, I am off prednisone , the fat face pill . I am excited to see if anything changes in my workouts. Only one week away from my half marathon! Sometimes I feel like I am ready and the majority of the time I am second guessing myself. I am a goal achiever and I promised you guys. My ANNUAL appointments are