Heart4Ash (Skwig)

The beginning of my week was pretty much normal, but by the end not so much. Thursday was Steve and I's 5th year anniversary. It does not seem like we  have been together that long. WOW!! I am so very blessed for my better half. He is simply my person and I love him with all that I am, even though sometimes I roll my eyes at him. That night I played basketball with my mom and some other women in a tournament. It is the best thing ever to be able to do the things I loved to do. Before I could run up and down the court maybe twice and I was pooped. Now I can go and go and keep on going. Crazy what a new heart can do. Saturday morning I wake up, did my morning ritual while Steve was still snoring. I went to the kitchen open up the freezer grab a frozen bagel, got the bread knife and began trying to cut it. The bagel was kind of hard to cut, but I was determined to get through it... . The knife slipped and I sliced open  my hand. I hurried and grabbed a paper towel, put pressure and r

Last year right at this very moment I was in the ICU still hooked up to a monitor and recovering. On the way home this afternoon from St. George, Miss Lynda one of the most amazing nurses ever, texted me saying she was thinking about me and my family and hoping everyone was doing well. I am over my head, grateful for those nurses and doctors that worked their buns off for me and never blink when times got really hard and even harder. We went down to St. George to see Gma and enjoy some sunshine. Saturday morning we went on a hike close by Gma's house . As Steve and I was looking around and enjoying the view right in front of us, we thought why had we ever left this place? It was so good to "go home" for us both this weekend. There is a lot weighting on my annual check up. Let me list them for you. 1. Eliquis  my blood thinner if I can get off of it 2. If I can get my eggs harvested if I am going to be still on eliquis 3. If we can now begin our surrogacy proces

Let me tell you about this past lovely week. No complaints, well as less to report. There are still very minor things, but everyone has something going on. This past Thursday at work I had the chance to sit down with another women who suffered from a stroke. She was much older than me, but we talked about how both our dominated sides were affected and the many trails. I told her every single step we take and move our weaker side the better we are off. She asked how long it took me to recover and I told her my story and how my family got me to the hospital very quickly and they put in me that blood dissolving drugs right away. In the end it doesn't matter about those details it all depends on your attitude and your outlook for your life. If you want to be okay with this then you are good, but if not. The only person that can change you is yourself, because anything we set our heart too is possible. That's what I am doing every day, day in and day out. My husband thinks I am cr

I am so happy that the seasons are changing. I love to have the warmth of the sun beat on my very sunscreen face :) I am getting pretty nervous about my annual testing. I feel wonderful, but I remind myself why I am feeling so good? Because I am borrowing an amazing heart from your outstanding donor. Then my nerves calm back down, because it is so worth all the pins of needles, all the clinc visits, the stays in the hospitals, the weakness of my body, the beatiful scars and soooo much more :) As I was singing this beautiful hymn today. A light bulb came on in my head...."With hands now pledged to do  thy  work, we take the sacrament." God knows that there are going to be times in our life's that we are tempted to do evil but if we have, "courage to accept  thy  will" and "to listen and obey" Him. Then "our hearts are full. We'll walk  thy  chosen way." We are all human beings, we understood that we would become tempted and tried in our