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all worth it

I am so happy that the seasons are changing. I love to have the warmth of the sun beat on my very sunscreen face :) I am getting pretty nervous about my annual testing. I feel wonderful, but I remind myself why I am feeling so good? Because I am borrowing an amazing heart from your outstanding donor. Then my nerves calm back down, because it is so worth all the pins of needles, all the clinc visits, the stays in the hospitals, the weakness of my body, the beatiful scars and soooo much more :)

As I was singing this beautiful hymn today. A light bulb came on in my head...."With hands now pledged to do thy work, we take the sacrament." God knows that there are going to be times in our life's that we are tempted to do evil but if we have, "courage to accept thy will" and "to listen and obey" Him. Then "our hearts are full. We'll walk thy chosen way." We are all human beings, we understood that we would become tempted and tried in our life time. And also that there was going to be trails throw at us in all types at any given moment, but as long as we always chose God we shall never stray our path. I always thought to myself, this is tough work to try and be like God always throughout day to day life, especially when something is really bothering you and you don't want to think of anything else except that one thing, but you obviously can't. And then you get angry and now here comes a bomb to about to exposed soon. This is me every week, sometime there are small explosions and others are quite large ones. If I partake of the sacrament each week and renew our covenant, I am good to go. This was a major relief for me because I am far from normal.

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  1. AnonymousMarch 7, 2016 at 10:08 AM

    love this ash- I just spent the morning reading and rereading your posts! So proud of you and and where you are ( here...and more) Anyway- Wanted to say how much we love you and are so happy that Steve brought you into our family. We are sooo lucky. You are a great example to us all and we need to strive harder and your comments and story inspire me! LOVE YA!!!

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  2. AnonymousMarch 7, 2016 at 10:09 AM

    and it was GREAT to see you guys Friday night... Crzy

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