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I have scheduled to see a psychologist to check off one of the steps of surrogacy for Steve and I as well as our surrogate and her husband this next coming week. I have no clue what the psychologist is going to ask, but she sounds nice on the phone. I thought our surrogate and us had to have therapy for an entire year, separately, but the steps didn't say so. That would be way nice if we didn't have too, and less stressful.
This weekend was a fun one. I decided to start playing golf, my very first game was in Moab over Memorial weekend. I think it's a lot of fun, even if you are sucking it real bad. We were down in Monticello visiting my mom's older brother and his family and we played Monitcello's golf course and that course is not for beginners let me tell you. First time around it rained on us. The next day we woke up and my mom, my cousin Tymbr and I ran a 5K in the morning which was beautiful run. We ran around Lloyd's lake and the temperature was spot on. After the run, we watched the parade for Pioneer Day. Then we went golfing and this time it started to rain on us at whole 5 maybe 6 and we kept on playing, by the time we got to hole 9 the rain stopped. That night we had all my cousins over with their family and we all had a bbq and visited. It was fun to talk about the past and laugh. We ended the night watching the fireworks that the city does. On the way home today after we went to church on the way home, my mom decided to stop and play another game of golf because it was her birthday weekend.
This weekend has made me realize how grateful I am for the people who have made an impact in my life and for who I am. I know that through my whole heart problem days I have grown and that is a majority of it, but as we were all in the car on our way home, we were reminiscing on the past and man I had one heck of a childhood. As Steve and I are going through the process of tiring to have our own baby, I want to be a parent that gives their kid the best childhood that they could ever have. It is scary to think about the world and what is going on in it right now and trying to raise a child up in it. I know through God's love, strength and our faith in Him we will do so, but trust me there are times when I do not believe. Always put faith in the Lord and He will bless you!


My mom, me and Tym after our run

Me, my grandpa Black and my brother
I wish I could give that man in the middle the hugest bear hug and a kiss on the cheek. Love you <3

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