stormy night

Alright guys last night was rough. So many negative things flying inside my head. I wasn't planning on sharing this, but everyone goes through those days that you just feel like crap and all you want to do is grab a carton of ice cream and eat the whole thing. Last night I was looking at myself in the mirror. I was saying stuff like; Wow your face is so fat and puffy, I hope my scars don't stay this color, you are ugly. I just wanted to be normal. If you know me I absolutely love v-neck shirts, but now I have been noticing I am not wearing them that much anymore. I am changing because I don't want everyone or society to see my scars. On the other hand I like scars, I feel like they make me look tough so its a consistent battle.
My mom and I went to this 'Beauty Redefined" thing a couple weeks ago. It showed me to not thing of myself as an ornament or a body part, because I am someone who is beautiful on the inside. Have you noticed that most woman always say to other woman, "Wow you look amazing!" Instead of using "look" try using "are". As woman we can do incredible things for example I did a 11 mile bike ride on Tuesday and felt great after. I did that and I don't care if someone can go longer than me. Us woman need to thing of ourselves as individuals and stop comparing ourselves to others, because each of us gives something special to this world. This is something that is hard to accomplish though, but if you just try a little here and there it will do remarkable things. And hey, everyone has there bad and good moments. I had a bad moment last night. All we gotta do is brush it off and say, "I can do better". So I am going to start wearing my v-neck shirts more and I don't care that one of my medicines make my face look puffy I am just going to roll with it. Suck on that SOCIETY!!