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I have been thinking a lot about posting on my blog, but have been pushing it to the side. I am thinking about posting another youtube video of where I am at now after my transplant because there has been a few questions that I believe would be better if I explain verbally. If that makes sense? My mom and I have thrown the idea around for the past year and I wish I would have done a new video each year that I have had my transplant to express the gratitude and show others that it is possible and to never give up. So... stay tuned!

I am getting my yoga certificate at the moment and enjoying every single step of the way. At the beginning I was extremely hard on myself and now that it has been a whole month since starting the program my understand of being humble with myself has grown enormously. This past weekend we learn a portion of the 8 limbs of yoga which was ahimsa meaning non-harming and non-violence. Obvious we all know not to kill anyone, right? What about saying something about yourself that isn't uplifting? OR to someone else? And then you take that frustration and become angry with someone you love or a friend or someone random. Is that being harming or violent?
After this weekend I have individually noticed that when I don't think negatively about myself and wish I was like all the different lean, strong, tan, beautiful hair, awesome clothes and all the other good stuff type of women on social media. I feel BEAUTIFUL, CONFIDENT and WORTH A MILLION BUCKS! Even when the day wasn't so hot, I have the urges to go down hill. Once I begin to think positively about my day and what I did, that frown turns upside down. I know it sounds silly and dumb. I promise you if you try you will be amazed. Last night I was sucked into Instagram and my thoughts was wishing that I was the different pictures of having a baby, fit as hell, traveling to crazy places and many others. As I was looking at the pictures I was saying out loud "stop looking at this, you are beautiful," and kept looking! Each of us are different, unique and we are amazing in our own ways and we matter in this world. So whenever you feeling like crap have a shot of ahimsa okay? I told my class that I was going to write "ahimsa" on my hand. Which hasn't happened yet :)

Since it has been sometime since I have posted prepare for random pictures...


We went up to Washington to see Steve's brother Mirvo, Kenzi, Luke and Liam. We went camping Olympic National Forest 



Had to see Bailey and her family as they took us out on the Puget Sound in Seattle 


ISU is going to miss Coach Gibson. Fun seeing old teammates at the Boise vs ISU game


Ross the super fan of ISU 


Steve and I after Fit One half 


Lorissa and me ride around the foothills 


Camping in McCall 



Chilling up at Bogus Basin with Kate, Boggs and Matt 


Boggs knows he's a stinker! 

"When we can accept one another, even if we do not always approve of others' behavior, we will make considerable progress towards achieving unity with one another."  -Michaelene P. Grassli






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