Heart4Ash (Skwig)

We went down south to St George for Christmas and spent it with my husband's family. A whole lot of cooking non stop, but man it was good food. We had prime rib for dinner better than Lawrys Prime Rib in Vegas. Those guys are nuts, but sure a lot of fun. I forgot one of my doses of pills the other night. Coming back and forth it is hard to remember. If I am in my routine I am good, but if there aren't any post-it  notes I'm gone. Before heading down to St George I went to the gym to run on the treadmill. Treadmills are so hard for me mentally. I always have to tell myself that I would be here without my donor. I frequently say, "you can do it, my donor's name." I don't know if I can say my donor's name or not? I am going to ask for us all. Here are some pictures... My parents, aunt, uncle, cousins and two of us at Temple Square Wrigley knocked out after prime rib

Oh my gosh! As I was reading my scriptures I was thinking about my day and I almost went to bed before posting. Well, it was a good week. Work is picking up so I am happy about that. I love to stay busy to a point. One day I was thinking to myself and how blessed I am for everything I have received on this beautiful earth. My parents, brother, husband, wrigley , my bestest friends, 3 hearts I have had, my LVAD team, my doctors, my donors, a job, a house and the list goes on and on. Sometimes I miss that life. I don't miss the hospital trust me. I miss waking up and taking my time making breakfast, going to the gym, getting ready, going for a walk with wrig on my own time during the day. Now I'm waking up early enough to hit the gym, make breakfast and lunch, get ready and I am off to work. I know I am overly grateful for my job. I absolutely love it, there is just sometimes when I wish I could go back. I wouldn't last long though. Because, yesterday I went...

This coming Tuesday is going to be a good day! This past week was way better than last week at work. I changed my mindset of work, work, work to more of a laid back self and telling myself it is okay if I don't have many patients. So remember when my doctor sat me down and pretty much yelled at. I haven't missed any of my pill's from that day on.  Ever since that moment I've been telling myself that my day can't begin or end without me taking my pill's. I am borrowing this heart so I have to take good care of it til  I give it back to my donor and give her a huge hug :)  I thought I would discuss my new year resolutions from this past year. I didn't achieve any of them, unfortunately. I was a shooting way far back. Small steps, I have realized this year. I was  planning on running a half marathon in Novemeber, but sickness took me. I am training for Febuary to accomplish my first half marathon. Hiking Mount Olympus, still haven't done. I was able to ge...

It is crazy how fast a week goes by. My mom and I were discussing this over the weekend. How long a week would be when I was in high school, it took forever to get to the weekend. Now its like you blink 3 times and hey, we are there. Not that quick, but it comes around a lot faster than when I was young. I feel like when we grow up , life becomes a lot harder. You have to deal with finding a job, co-workers and bosses. Time flies by when you have to deal with all that. I can't believe that it has been 9 months this month since I got the gift of life. I thought that day would never come when Gus was stuck with me. Now that I am back to the old Ashley. I'm thinking like the old Ashley. Not good. It is so easy to take life for granted I believe that everyone has done this. I have, it's so simple. I noticed this when I went to the temple this past weekend with my mom. I am so blessed to still be on this earth that He created and I am able to go to his house on this earth to f...