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Last night I was thinking to myself about mental toughness and how incredible our minds are. If you say you can't do something then your body just shuts off, but if you tell yourself you can do this or you can handle this then your body does whatever you are doing or handling. Like I said in my last post, I am so grateful for where I am at now than where I was a month ago. A month ago I was wishing I was where I am today. If you stay positive and optimistic about what you do each day your mental toughness will take you along and carry you through your day, but if not your days are going to be hard.
By the end of my walk today I was getting pretty tired and I told myself, "Come on Paige you got this" and I finished strong. No matter what you are doing everyone can finish. Never give up on yourself, maybe someone else is better but who cares. This is something that I need to learn. Someday I will be back to my old self and be able to do whatever I want...SOMEDAY! I can't wait for that someday. Each day I have to keep challenging myself to get to that someday. Our minds are stronger than our bodies. That is crazy to think, but all we gotta do is set our minds on something and go and get it! Now go out and get whatever you want!!! :)
On Thursday I didn't have to go into the clinic so I went outside and built a snowman with help from my hubby and then it melted today.  


Today was a great day I went for 2 decent size walks today and felt good after. No naps today, I say naps are for wienies :) I have been eating like a horse and an elephant put together. I haven't taken any pain pills for the last 2 days now and my incision doesn't hurt anymore. My lungs aren't there yet still a little pain when I take a deep breath in, but they will get there, promise. My bald spot on my head is still there unfortunately, but my mom said there is hair growing!! YEAH! Still shimmying in my right hand, it's going to take some time A LOT of TIME. Just gotta keep my mind on that SOMEDAY!  

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