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quarantine = self reflection

I was talking with my lovely mother on Facetime this morning and she suggested to post on my blog. I look at my blog and noticed I haven't posted since November! So here you go, during this crazy time I am no longer working and my day to day tasks have shifted drastically. I am sure all of you know what is going on all over the world. I hope all of you are staying safe and healthy. I have been in this situation before. I was taken out of the game due to my heart, my life was soccer. Now my life was going to work and heading off to soccer practice, but COVID-19 has taken that away. I am reflecting on my response when my heart wasn't doing that well. At first I was frustrated and asking why? Now I am doing the same thing. WHY? Because I am HUMAN I know!!! This time I caught myself and decided to choose another route. 

My alternate route has been getting outside every darn day, no matter the weather and enjoying the beauties of this earth, sun, clouds, rain, breeze, nature, the sound of birds, dogs barking and listening to people working outside. During this time it is easy to focus on the negatives. What positives are there? For me, my positives are spending time with Steve and Wrigley, doing things that have been put on the back burner, slowing down and chill, staying connected with family and friends, studying the scriptures, listening to podcasts, listening to my intuition and following it and getting a nice tan.

If you are feeling a little blue try going outside!

Here are the highlights of what is new with me: 
-I am a head coach for Indie Chicas 05 team and assisting with 06 and 10's. The girls give me so much light even when I have had a bad day. 
-I am doing individual/privates with different girls on their footwork, passing and shooting. 
Ever since my transplant, I could never imagine I would be in this situation. I feel so blest to be able to reconnect with all my soccer connections and have them welcome me with open arms. My passion for the game continue to grow as I am training the girls. 

I haven't had my annual yet and planning on going to see the docs in May. Can't believe it has been 5 years. So grateful for my donor and giving me this gift of life. 

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  1. UnknownApril 18, 2022 at 12:26 PM

    I talk about your story and show your video when you introduced "Gus" to my students in a medical device school. You and the path you have endured is so inspirational and has touched me deeply. I hope you have stayed well during the pandemic. Thanks for sharing your journey!

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