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my best friend and sister

Oh my gosh! As I was reading my scriptures I was thinking about my day and I almost went to bed before posting. Well, it was a good week. Work is picking up so I am happy about that. I love to stay busy to a point. One day I was thinking to myself and how blessed I am for everything I have received on this beautiful earth. My parents, brother, husband, wrigley, my bestest friends, 3 hearts I have had, my LVAD team, my doctors, my donors, a job, a house and the list goes on and on. Sometimes I miss that life. I don't miss the hospital trust me. I miss waking up and taking my time making breakfast, going to the gym, getting ready, going for a walk with wrig on my own time during the day. Now I'm waking up early enough to hit the gym, make breakfast and lunch, get ready and I am off to work. I know I am overly grateful for my job. I absolutely love it, there is just sometimes when I wish I could go back. I wouldn't last long though. Because, yesterday I went to the gym and ran 6 miles on the treadmill. HATE treadmills awful. Steve went to help my dad, so after I was done with the gym, I took a shower and made myself some eggs. I turned on the tv and I was chillin. I lasted 2 hours by myself and I was bugging Steve.
I had a clinic visit with the doctors and I have been a good girl about my pills. I changed my mindset. I am borrowing this heart so I need to take real good care of it so I can give it back to my donor. I talked with my doctors about harvesting my eggs and surrogacy. They told me I have to wait til March to do anything. I explain to them I understand I just wanted to know if it is a possibility and if so it takes a long time to get the ball rolling. I mean we have to be in counseling for a whole year with the surrogate mother. This stuff isn't a joke. They informed me that they don't know how harvesting my eggs who impact me and if my anti-rejection drugs are affecting them. They are going to get back with me on that. I hope this is a possibility, oh my you don't know how my world would change if I had a little rugrat. I am getting chills just thinking about it. All my blood tests came back great. I have another alomap and echo in 3 weeks. My ticker is doing amazing.
I got another letter from my donor father and this time he sent me a picture of his daughter, my donor. At first I was nervous to open it. The reason why he sent it is because I told him that I thought of his daughter as my best friend and sister. As I was reading his letter I was going to the next page and there she was. I didn't cry, I looked at her and started to think about how she was feeling when she took the picture. Her father hasn't told me just a little bit about her. My mind is racing and I had to put it down. This was on Friday, on Saturday as I was running and dead tried I thought this is for you (my donor). My whole body got chills as I was running. This is why I am doing this half marathon. I am doing it for my donor, because without her I wouldn't be able to.

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