Heart4Ash (Skwig)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! What a great day my birthday was. Woke up, went to the gym, Got ready for work, only had one patient and then had the rest of the day to myself. Love being independent and on my own. My family and friends came over to our house to have cake and ice cream. Spending time with the ones I care about is the best gift I could ask for. Making my wish? Work went well. Having a good attitude in situations makes it 85% better or more :) One of the aide got another job this week, Wednesday was her last day :( She was such a ray of sunshine to see when I went to work. Yesterday I woke up early and ran 8 miles. My plan was to run to my house in Sugarhouse to my parents house in Cottonwood Heights about 10 miles. Didn't make it, I fell twice on my run because of the snowy roads and the snow was way WAY wet and I was freezing. So, when I first fell, I tripped over a dirt pile which was underneath the snow and from there I decid...

This week started out not good and ended much better. I changed my mindset. I thought how Christ treats people with kindness, never judging, caring, and with love. Over the month I have started to go to work only for the patients rather than me going to work really excited about everything. At the beginning of this week I did not want to go in, but I did anyways. I noticed how I started to treat people at my work differently. A couple of Sundays ago I remembered one of the lessons was on how we treat everyone we come in counter with on a day to day basis. That day I thought of a moment when I was going to get some pills at the pharmacy, the woman who I interacted with wasn't nice at all. After I walked off and sa id some words th at I shouldn't have said. We are all humans and we forget things and I 'm a lost cause because I can't even remember if I took my pills or not, but anyways. We don't even know why people treat you the way they do, but we can change our att...

This past week was rough. My alomap  came back at 34, my doctors wanted me to come in and get a biopsy done because they didn't have that much data on me ever since I started doing alomap . This worried me a wee bit. I was thinking there is no way that I could be doing what I am doing if my heart is rejecting. Oh, and I forgot how painful getting a biopsy was. I told the doctor performing my biopsy when he asked me if I feel pressure or something sharp, " Ya, I can feel some sharpness, but I like to know what you are doing." Bad idea my neck was sore for 2 days. The guy that put on my bandage sucked at putting the bandage right over where they went into my neck. So I thought I had some extra regular bandaids in my purse so, me not thinking I took off and put some bandaids  on. When I got to my car I thought to myself that was the stupidest thing ever. The interjugular  vein goes straight to your heart. Did I wash my hand? Yes, but still what I did was not sterile at al...

What my doctors said about me going to get my eggs harvested... They gave me a name of OBGYN that is great at getting eggs out. They never said yes or no about surrogacy. The main concern they have is when the OBGYN wants to get my eggs ready they have to put me on these hormones to get my eggs at the right stage. When women go on hormones they are more susceptible to get blood clots. Me and blood clots do not go very well and I do not want anything to do with them. They don't know if I am going to have to stop taking my blood thinner eliquis  or not, but I have to wait til  my annual visit. Which is okay by me. Every time I see a kiddo, I want to eat their faces off, but not like the walking dead stuff :) I just want a little guy that I can teach, watch it grow, to love, care, laugh together, stay up at hours that everyone should be asleep. Steve and I have been searching for an attorney and I think we have found one. Great appointment status right there....

What a year it has been for me, my family and friends. There were some pretty eventful days for all of us. So very thankful for my cheer squad through this year. Before this year I never thought of a heart transplant. I mean I knew I was going to get one sometime in my lifetime, but this soon. At first I was kinda upset when the doctor was telling me about how bad my heart was functioning. All of this came incredibly fast and now I am on the other end of it. I remember when I had a melt down with Gus and being so frustrated that I didn't get my new heart. Everyone else had got theirs, why not me? Those days have come and gone. I have learned so much about myself and how much Heavenly Father loves each in every one of you. He works in such mysterious ways, that is so amazing to me. I have not only learned, I have grown. My golden year has been one I will never forget and I bet I will be referencing through out my life. There are so many of you that I wa...

We went down south to St George for Christmas and spent it with my husband's family. A whole lot of cooking non stop, but man it was good food. We had prime rib for dinner better than Lawrys Prime Rib in Vegas. Those guys are nuts, but sure a lot of fun. I forgot one of my doses of pills the other night. Coming back and forth it is hard to remember. If I am in my routine I am good, but if there aren't any post-it  notes I'm gone. Before heading down to St George I went to the gym to run on the treadmill. Treadmills are so hard for me mentally. I always have to tell myself that I would be here without my donor. I frequently say, "you can do it, my donor's name." I don't know if I can say my donor's name or not? I am going to ask for us all. Here are some pictures... My parents, aunt, uncle, cousins and two of us at Temple Square Wrigley knocked out after prime rib

Oh my gosh! As I was reading my scriptures I was thinking about my day and I almost went to bed before posting. Well, it was a good week. Work is picking up so I am happy about that. I love to stay busy to a point. One day I was thinking to myself and how blessed I am for everything I have received on this beautiful earth. My parents, brother, husband, wrigley , my bestest friends, 3 hearts I have had, my LVAD team, my doctors, my donors, a job, a house and the list goes on and on. Sometimes I miss that life. I don't miss the hospital trust me. I miss waking up and taking my time making breakfast, going to the gym, getting ready, going for a walk with wrig on my own time during the day. Now I'm waking up early enough to hit the gym, make breakfast and lunch, get ready and I am off to work. I know I am overly grateful for my job. I absolutely love it, there is just sometimes when I wish I could go back. I wouldn't last long though. Because, yesterday I went...