Heart4Ash (Skwig)

What a week it has been, a little stressed, excited and nervous. The reason why is because Steve, Wrigley and I are packing up and heading north to Boise Idaho. I accepted a full-time physical therapist assistant job up there. I am really excited to about it because my workload will increase and my knowledge will too. I will still be in orthopedics and in an outpatient facility which is awesome. I gave my 2 week notice to my boss at my job now, everyone there are excited for me and sad to see me go. My doctors go up to Boise each month to see outlying patients. The only thing that I still have to do in Utah is my annual testing. With the surrogacy process we have already asked if we could move and our attorney said yes, the surrogate has to be in Utah. I have already spoken with our surrogate mother and she is on board with us. We are still moving forward on the process with the legal part of it. After the legal side of it is done I will have to come back to Utah and get my eggs retri...

This past week was a wake up for our Wrigley. We had a dog trainer come over to our house and teach us how to break his habits of aggression towards other dogs and people. We learned how Wrigley communicates and when to give affections and praise and when not to. Now that we have the proper tools rather than the wrong ones. We are excited to help train Wrigley's behaviors into more friendly ones. This process is going to be long, but just like our surrogate process we are going to dive in and handle whatever is to come. With the surrogacy I have spoken to my parent's neighbor about being our attorney and she agreed to represent us.  This weekend we headed up to Boise. Steve and I have always liked the idea of Boise, so we went to go and checked out some places. We got these bikes at the hotel we were staying at for FREE and rode around downtown Boise. We had a blast riding around to all the places. On the way home, we stopped to see Idaho State women's soccer play. They be...

Can't believe that summer is almost over. Seasons come and seasons go just like how our moods change and how our lives change and grow each day. On Monday after work I asked Steve if he wanted to work on something in the back yard. We had these pavers to use and we decided that we wanted to put them in an area where the barbeque was. As we were out in the back yard, shoveling where we were going to put the wood board I thought this would be a fun activity to do together. Steve did not like the idea, in other word his mood wasn't the best. Sometimes at the beginning of something it is a struggle to get into the groove of it. During the week his mood changed everyday the project had a little bit more done and now we have a nice barbeque area to grill up some grub. At the beginning of anything our lives, it is difficult to really picture the ending. Each step towards the end picture is better than staying in the same spot. I am trying to stay optimistic about our surrogacy ...

In the middle of this past week I thought to myself, "Did you post on your blog last Sunday?" I hurried and check and I did not. I am so sorry, but like I have always said we are all human and forget things when life gets a little too busy and crazy. Last Sunday we were heading back from St George from visiting Steve's grandma. She had shoulder surgery and she is 93 years old. I know she is one wise, stubborn, loving and one sexy young lady. As we were down there she kept saying this surgery has taken all my energy. I tried to tell her that before the surgery, but she was all in. She is doing great for her young body and is still the best grandma in the west. On the way home a good friend invited us over to have shakes  with another family and then after saying yes to her my mom texted me and ask if we wanted to go over to eat dinner with them. So ... this is why it slipped my mind. Two weeks ago we went to see Dr. Snell a psyhchologist for our screening. I was nervous ...

I have scheduled to see a psychologist to check off one of the steps of surrogacy for Steve and I as well as our surrogate and her husband this next coming week. I have no clue what the psychologist is going to ask, but she sounds nice on the phone. I thought our surrogate and us had to have therapy for an entire year, separately, but the steps didn't say so. That would be way nice if we didn't have too, and less stressful. This weekend was a fun one. I decided to start playing golf, my very first game was in Moab over Memorial weekend. I think it's a lot of fun, even if you are sucking it real bad. We were down in Monticello visiting my mom's older brother and his family and we played Monitcello's golf course and that course is not for beginners let me tell you. First time around it rained on us. The next day we woke up and my mom, my cousin Tymbr and I ran a 5K in the morning which was beautiful run. We ran around Lloyd's lake and the temperature was spot...

This week on Wednesday our surrogate and I met with the surrogacy coordinators at the U of U. We went over all the steps of what Steve and I have to do and our surrogate and the medications we are going to be on. As well as a little bit about the verbiage like; IP stands for intended parents in other words Steve and I and GC/surrogate stands for gestation carrier or our amazing surrogate. She is the most giving person to give us 2 years of her own life. She has two little kiddos of herself that are 3 years old and 1 year one. I am so blessed that our paths have crossed. Sometimes I can't believe how the man above works. He amazes me everyday! The surrogate process is 12 steps and some of those steps are harder than the other ones, but we are just going to tackle each step at a time. The next step is to call a Psychologist and have her make sure that we all our mentally stable to be going through all this. The plan is to call this coming week and schedule an appointment for Steve an...

Well, all the puppy dogs ended up getting along alright. We had to watch Wrigley and make sure Chewy and him kept their distance. It was a fun weekend with Steve's mom Lisa here. Every night we all sat down and had this amazing dinner. On Thursday my good friend Jac and her husband Isaiah came down with their adorable baby girl and had dinner with us. Jac and I were college roommates when I was playing soccer at Idaho State. Jac and I were catching up on our lives and how crazy it is that we are all growing up and are at different phases of life. It felt so good to visit with both of them and what our plans for the future. That night as I was getting ready for bed, I felt so grateful for my friendship with both Jac and Isaiah. I am blessed that our paths crossed because they are some way rad people. Friday at work my boss and I were chatting about how great and marvelous the gospel is and how people handle trials in their daily lives. When I was first diagnosed with my hear...